Abah..i'm grow up..i'm 24...

hehe..mcm pelik je tajuk dier kn??ari tu aku ade citer kn..tayar HoneyVi pancit kn??sbb paku cium dier..tp skrg dh baik sbb dh g tampal itu ari..pastu aku bgtau mak abah aku perihal tayar tu..then abg aku plak gelabah x tentu psal..dier ckp pegi la tukar tayar baru..awk tu nk drive jauh..kang jadi pape tgh jln susah plak..pastu biler dier ckp mcm tu, mak abah aku ni brganda2 plak gelabahnyer..2 3 kali duk ulang benda yg samer.."Nurul, esok g tukar tayar"(sila ulang baca sebyk 3 kali ye)..aku pn ckp la..ala, x yh la tukar2 tayar..tayar tu elok lg..kena paku kecik je..bole jln lg tu..then abah aku serta merta membidas.."x der x der, esok g tukar..pastu msg abh baper kena bayar..abah masukkn duit"..aku plak biler dgr abah ckp mcm tu, tetiba raser hangin kus kus satu badan..aku ckp.."abah, nurul ada duit la, nurul bole bayar"..masa tu mak aku dh diam dh..dia tau aku x suke bila abah selalu sgt tlg aku..sbbnya AKU DH BESAR..aku bakal masuk usia 24 dh..DH BESAR DH ANAKMU NI...
dulu prnh 1 ketika, aku nk bwk diorg g Perak..nk melawat nenek aku kt ctu..then abh ni senyap2 je dia pegi call abg2 aku ajak pegi sekali..pastu diorg x leh ikut sbb ader keje..then dia ajak plak jiran aku..pn diorg x leh ikut..last sekali x jadi pegi..abah ckp.."Nurul, x yh la pg lg..nnt2 la ye kita pegi"..tp aku tau, ayat sbnr yg abh nk ckp "x der org yg bole ikut kite, abh x harap sgt ngn kamu..kalo ade abg, ok la ckit..ni kamu sorg yg drive, x nk la abah"
ha..itu ayat sbnrnyer...
aku ni diam je la..mmg abah x anggap aku dh besar..dh bole berdikari..dh bole jaga diorg pn

smlm aku call abg Zaniel(abg sulong)..nk mengadu la konon..aku ni mmg..ade x puas ati je, mesti crk abg..bkn crk En Din..gagaga..aku ckp la.."abg, abah selalu x prcaya kt adikmu ini(ni tmbh je..heheh)..org dh besar la..tp still buat org mcm bdk kecik lg"
ayat abg plg best.."mmg la, even umur kamu 30 pn abh akn anggap kamu bdk kecik lg..kahkahkah(gelak keji)"
ngrrr...tlg la korg..aku nk jadi orang BESAR..tp, hmm..ntah la...

lg satu, smlm jgk aku g buat smthing kt rambut aku..ni projek brsama Reha..nk dkat 4 jm brabis masa d saloon..perghh..sungguh puas ati...raser best je tgk rambut sendiri..n lg best kuarkn rm250 dr purse..hambek ko..kak Miza kater mmbazir je..tp aku suker..lg duit penuh dlm purse, lg tgn aku gatal nk peghabihkn..skrg pdn muke ko Nurul..duit rebate keter yg aku dpt dh abih dh..En Din call maser aku kt saloon..ha, menggelupur nk jwb..aku ckp dtg cuci rambut jeeee..ngeh ngeh ngeh..kalo la dier tau aku dh hanguskn rm250 utk rambut, mau kena kerat 14 nih..mati laaaa

p/s: x sabar nk tggu ana blek..nk tnjk rambut baru..hihi

when it comes 2 make a choice...

Filzah..u're rite..it s alwayz turn 2 b hard 2 make a decision..bcoz u ll never know either it was a rite or wrong decision..same goes 2 anybody..
as 4 a time being..i cannot deny that frequently i'm facing wif something that need me to choose..n every decision i made..will either hurt my self or hurt people around me.none of my decision will satisfy everybody..so, what kind of 'good' choice that i have?
so, I juz tawakkal tu 'alallah..
jika di takdirkn aku menyesal dgn decision aku skrg..maka redhakanlah hatiku Ya Tuhan..

why..why and why?

naper aku kejer time sumer org cuti? supposedly aku pn kena cuti jgk bcoz nobody around..kalo nk buat jahat pn bole gak..dtg punch in, then pegi shoping, ptg karang dtg blek punch out..but i'm still sitting in front of this machine updating 'my bestfriend' and doing some work..why??
aku raser aku sedang mengalami 1 keadaan di mana aku xdpt membuat pertimbangan hidup yg betul..n i cannot come up wif a right decision..hati ingin bercuti tapi fikiran menghasut bahawa x der maknanya kalo cuti tp keja bertimbun kt ofis..so, i ikut kata fikiran..dtg ofis n buat kejer..tp..biler dh dtg ofis, mood pulak yg x dtg2..dia x ikut aku sekali ker maser dtg ofis pg td?
hmm...di mana kau wahai mooood..why u don't follow me? n why this machine looks like 'Vincci' shoes at Jusco..why???may b 'mood' is there..so, i should b there too..so, c u soon..:)

noni skrg...

6.15 am - wake up dgn malas sekali..mandi..solat..get ready 2 go 2 e ofis
7.25 am - breakfast..nescafe 4 sure!
7.30 am - waiting 4 bus 2 putrajaya sentral
8.00 am - naik bas no 429 2 cyberjaya(amat sesak, jarang dpt duduk)
8.20 am - smpi ofis..punch card..then, turun breakfast kalo x sempat breakfast kt umah..
8.40 am - check email, tgk kalo2 ada task baru from my boss..n reading newspaper
9.00 am - start mengadap coding smpi lunch hour
1.00 pm - pegi lunch
2.00 pm - continue ushar coding lagi
5.20 pm - dh besiap2 nk blek
5.45 pm - time 2 go home
6.30 pm - smpi umah..start masak 4 dinner
7.30 pm -dinner
9.00 pm - iron baju tuk esok plak
9.30 pm - watching TV smpi tertido..

hmm..cam boring jer idup aku..

8 habits

huh..2 hr 2 mlm pikir 2 come up with 8 habits of mine..Ana dh tagged aku, so kena la buat (jaga hati kwn..hehe). Here it is:

• Kuat shopping - tp time ader duit jer..kalo x, malas gak nk menapak ke shopg complex tu
• Cepat bosan - yg ni mmg dr dulu lg. Contohnya kasut, satu2 kasut tu, jangka hayatnyer cuma 3 - 6 bln shj, pas2 i ll buy a new one :)
• Sikap berubah-ubah - flexible la..kalo aku kwn ngan bdk kecik, aku pn jd mcm diorg gak..kalo aku sembg ngan org2 yg alim, aku akn jadi bdk baik..kalo aku sembg ngan org2 berumur, aku jadi anak yg sopan n ramah..heheh
• Emotional n sensitif..huhu.kalo aku marah, aku mesti rasa nk nangis..x syok aa
• Gurlish ckit - like pink color, love wearing high heels, love roses n many more...
• Mudah terpikat pd mender2 yg indah n cantik (hensem pn trmasuk la..hehe)
• Not a good decision maker - sbb suka buat keputusn ikut hati.org kata kalo ikut hati..mati. selalu buat silap but my life still under control la
• Skrg ada hobi baru - memasak yg membuatkn habit aku yg first tu kurang ckit...

hmm..nk tag saper eh?

1. safwan
2. paan
3. najma
4. miera
5. br najmi
6. br rizal
7. maiza
8. saper2 yg visit my blog

ok?

disini bukan tempatku

i dont know how to express my feeling rite now...everything got so confusing..huhu.
working at product development dept is not what i want..i m not belong 2 this place where everybody siting in front of PC all day long..i cannot survive like this and i wanna run out from all this messy things..pleaseeeeeeeeee..help me!!!

my happiness

salam to all...sorry 4 not updating my blog so long(buzy wif other stuff).
yesterday, aku convo..da most waited moment in my study life. byk kali jgk la aku menitiskn air mata di ats kejayaan yg Allah anugerahkn kt aku..sometg that i never dream of b4.
di saat melihat mak n abah aku ditempatkn di barisan depan sekali bersama all da VIPs..aku x dpt nk menahn air mata aku...inilh kejayaan yg aku nk bg kt diorg diatas pengorbanan diorg pd aku.
untuk kwn2 aku yg dtg meraikn kejayaan aku - liza, nisah, imah, mira, miha, afni, huda, paan, maiza, ju, fidah and Najma - tq so much dear..i ll miss u guys...good luck yeah.
aku teringat ucapan faheem smlm, dia ada ckp lebih kurang mcm ni la, "what ever our CGPA are, it doesn't really matter now..bcoz what matter most is a plan 4 our future"...u r rite faheem, zaman nk mengejar good grade may b dh lpas, skrg ni we r entering new world..so, we need different plan 4 our life.

its over now...

today is my last HCI class..i juz having my last presentation yesterday..not bad la.everything went like what being planned...memg best class dh habis..:)
for MCAD class, i ve got new trainer..nice guy.kul 4.30ptg dh bole balik.thats the best news..hehe. today, i try to do chat application using vb, but theres some error here n there.boring la camni..:(
but, while doing this application, it remind me to my FYP last semester.but that one using J2ME.
FYP...memory dat i ll never forget..sharing all the sadness, happiness n all kinds of feeling with my colleague 4 about 4 month...its terrible but that is the most valuable memory...

be strong

i'm start counting days now. after about 20 days from today, everything will change.no more being a student and no more enjoying my campus life. so sad huh...when thinking 'bout my future, it turns to be so scary...still can't see it clearly..where Allah will put me after this...where i have to start my life...i don't know yet...
juz pray to Allah that He will place me at the place where i can improve myself to be a good servant to Him...
what i wanna do rite now is to prepare myself for whatever circumstances that i'm gonna face soon.

Hari yg boring...

Hari ni aku raser boring sgt...smlm dh struggle giler siapkn report it n islam smpi kul 6pg.
Alhamdulillah,siap jgk...
Cadangnyer nk tgk wyg ari ni..citer 300. tp pg td sumer dh letih, so x jd la tgk wyg..
x per la, lain kali jer la.
Dh lamer rasernyer x tgk wyg..tp x penting pn..hehe

Skrg ni nk kena struggle on fyp plak..hrp2 la sempat siap..Amin...

fosscar...fosscar...fosscar
just me n paan left 2 do all the job,nobody else.
where are all 80s committees?
i dont know...they r not really think of it..they r all bz with their business.
but..
its ok 4 me..whatever happen..i'll make sure this programme will b succeed..its my promise..

hmmm..1st time writing here:)
today, so many things 2 think of..
bout FOSSCAR..my assignment..etc
but..its ok..it is what we call LIFE rite?
tomorrow i have 2 c my deputy dean..get his signature..then fax..
then c paan at OR..then c Br Abu..
So, i wanna sleep now..c u 2morrow

Nite..